blardy hell

don't know why i bother blogging when i have assignments waiting to be done.
an old friend of my dad came to our house this evening. after 30 years, this is the second time they reunited. clearly my dad was really happy to see uncle yaakub. excited still, he told us his high school stories and i must say, he has an interesting life as a boy who lived in kota bharu. much more interesting than mine :(

i feel like a pig. i've been eating as if i have the metabolism of 10 horses, which i dont.
the result, fats! fats been spreading everywhere; my thighs, ass, tummy, arms, face - everywhere except that one place which i dont think its appropriate of me to write it down here.
sheesh.
and i have no time to exercise, still. honestly!

i've realized, at this age, most of the people are in a stable, long-term relationship. i was browsing my friends' profiles and i've noticed that they're with the same people they were with 3,4,5 years ago. and it hit me, why am i not?
maybe i'm not mature enough when it comes to this relationship matters.
maybe i'm still not ready.
or maybe i haven't met that one person who can shake me from dreaming and come to realize that now is my time.
*sigh*