empty.
i feel like i'm losing every single thing, one by one, slipping from my grasp.

there are times when u have to make choices, well all the time actually.
but what if u have to make choices that u wish u would never have to.
the HARD ones.
and the outcomes from both choices give the same effect to u.
or what if whatever decisions u're going to make involve those people whom u care the most?
how would u know that the choice u've chosen is the right one?

one wrong move and boom, it's history.
one got hurt while the other doesn't realize the trouble u went through.
one is pissed while the other remains ungrateful for every thing u have sacrificed for.

i am really, really sorry for those who were affected by my "selfishness" and trust me, it wasn't easy for me too.
there were too many constraints that i had to make that decision and that doesn't mean one is much more worthy than the other.
its just that, even though u have dozens of choices, it seems that u have no choice in the end and u have to do what u gotta do.

i cant believe i'm confusing myself at 3.30 in the morning!