thoughts

i have spent almost 4 hours trying my very best to read a couple of short accounting articles and yet, i have not managed to even finish reading one.

so i asked myself, do i really want to be an accountant?
what made me chose this stream rather than anything else?
or is it because it's written as my fate although i don't enjoy it even one bit?

and i came to this,
i have no answer to those questions.
i guess all this talking about work is freaking me out. my friends and i had a few conversations about what we're gonna do after graduating and most of them already have plans.
and leaving me wondering, am i the only one here who is still clueless about every thing?

to work or to study.
seriously, i can't picture myself working in the near future.
but to study, i'm not sure if i want to continue studying right after grad (agak penat la rite?)
turning 21 and still, i cant make a single friggin decision for myself, and i am oh so pissed!
how i wish i dont have to grow up so fast and let others make the decisions for me so that i dont get all the blames when something that came from my decision goes wrong.
every thing seems so beautiful when life is less complicated, no?