Flightless Bird, American Mouth

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

The song was taken from the prom dance scene.
p/s: Haniza, I'm sure u'll love this song. Its kinda similar to Earth Angel, only better :)

When you can live forever, what do you live for?

"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb"
"What a stupid lamb"
"What a sadistic, massochatic lion"

I've finally watched Twilight the movie after almost 2 years of waiting. And you know what, although the movie was lacking some stuff, I think the movie is awesome! Edward Cullen is the man of every girl's dreams, including myself. I'm glad Rob Pattinson did a great job as Edward Cullen and credits to Kirstin Stewart also for her act in the part where she got bitten by James. It was exactly how the author described it in the book.

They've changed some scenes and was quite a dissapointment because they didn't show some important parts like, when edward explained to bella about his so-called special diet, the letter she wrote for edward when she went to face James, and etc. I think they should include those because not all of those who watched the movie have read the book.

And they did some mistakes in the movie as well. For example, in the scene where Bella went to face James, which took place in a ballet studio. According to Stephenie Meyer, the author, vampires dont have reflections. But in the movie, there were reflections of James in the mirrors. And my sister asked me a question which I have no answer to that as well.
How would Edward Cullen feel when Bella is having her period?
Hahaha. I know we think TOO much and getting a little bit too obssessed with the movie but seriously. How would he adjust himself to that kind of situation?

I can only give one answer for now.
Mind over matter, as Edward said in the book which's not mentioned in the movie. pfft.

As someone who has read all 4 series of the twilight saga, I would give the movie 4 stars PLUS Edward's charm which leads to 5 STARSS!! YEAA!! I'm going to watch it again maybe next week.

Cant wait for New Moon :)

i feel so fat and bloated. correction. I am fat and bloated.
friggin fishballs. now i need to go on a strict diet and exercise like shit.

Remember that bapok dude which I thought I had a crush on during my internship? I looked through his new pictures at friendster and guess what? He has a girlfriend now. I feel happy for him (seriously) because he's been so desperate to find a girl ever since I got to know him. Its pathetic, i know. The girl is, hmmm how should i put it nicely? well, she looks like a nice kid, nuff said. And that blardy bapok removed me from his friends' list!! Like wtf is his problem with me? I mean, I dont really care but why? That means we cant be friends because I've rejected him three times in 2 weeks? He is so blardy fuqn sensitive emo shit. I wish the new girlfriend all the best ;p


anyway, since my birthday's coming real soon, I've been browsing here and there to look for birthday presents.
I think I will ask for this baby, the Blackberry Bold for my birthday, until I can think of other cheaper birthday present considering my parents had spent their budget for my present on that toyota camry.
Oh yeah, parents bought a new toyota camry. I wish they'd buy alphard nstead but camry sounds fine to me.
For now, I have to list down what I want for my birthday. Hmm, how about a full-expense paid trip to new york or australia? :)

TWILIGHT IS FINALLY OUTTTT!

As I have anticipated earlier, the movie wouldn't be as GREAT as the novel itself. I've read the reviews and majority of the critics gave 3.5 out of 5, which is quite fair, considering the sucky casts. Seriously, the casting people should really READ the book. Bella, as described in the book, has bangs and she looks sick and helpless. Kirstin Stewart doesn't look sick and she nas no bangs at all. Edward's supposed to be drop dead gorgeous but I think Pattinson lived up to the character.

Other than that, I don't think people who have never read the book would appreciate and enjoy the story as much as those who have. That explains the ratings given by the critics.

But whatever, I'm so going to watch the movie as soon as it is released in Malaysia next Thursday. I've always been in love with Edward Cullen *drools*

Pakcik Siti oh Pakcik Siti

my klutziness has gone too far and I really need to do something about it.

went for another job interview yesterday and I was a bit in a rush as I woke up late. When I arrived at the company, just a few steps away, I just remembered.

I forgot to bring my friggin resume and handphone!

Cursing while thinking hard of an excuse to give if they want my resume (of course they need your resume fuqn dummy!). I took a deep breath and walked into the office confidently and talked to the receptionist. She told me to fill in a form and I told her that my car broke down and i left my resume in the car. stupid, i know but it worked. They asked me to email my resume but i'm not sure if I will get the job. such a fuqn slacker okay!

After the interview, I wanted to have lunch with aliaa and haniza but since I forgot to bring my handphone, I decided to just go straight to UIA to pay my fees. As I arrived at the main gate, Pakcik Siti (our favourite UIA pak guard) stopped me and asked me why haven't I changed the car sticker. So I explained to him that I've graduated and I wanted to pay my tuition fees.

Pakcik Siti (PS): Dah grad baru nak bayar duit yuran? kau ni biar betul.
Me: Ye pakcik. Saya lupa nak bayar haritu.
PS: (Shook his head) Kawan kau yg kecik2 bawak myvi tu kan? Dia pun dah grad ke?
Me: Aah, dia pun sama grad dgn saya. Pakcik ingat dia ye?
PS: Mana tak ingat pulak. Korang ni selalu kena marah pun tak nak tukar sticker jugak eh. Nasib baik tak kena saman.
(Cars started queueing behind)
Me: Tu la pakcik. *grins*
PS: Kau dah dapat kerja ke belum?
Me: Belum lagi pakcik. Ni tgh cari kerja la ni
PS: *Smiled* Tahniah la dah grad. Enjoy dulu sekarang ni. Lepas tu baru cari kerja.
Me: Okay pakcik. Terima kasih banyak ye!
PS: emm.. yelah. Ok bye!
Me: BYEEEEEE!!!!!!

He's sooooo cute! I'm sure haniza would be really excited if she's here :(
After I've settled paying and all, went to HS Cafe and bought myself the most delicious pau ever! I ate at HS Cafe all alone and reminisced the good old memories. Saw yusuf saleem, my sean connery lecturer. And then, I left.

I'm sure gonna miss the holy ground :(

Pictures from our KL Night Out, to celebrate our graduation. Boe was supposed to join us but she had to attend her room mate's sister's wedding. We booked a room in Impiana Hotel and thanks to aliaa's dad, we got a special rate for our one night stay. Had our dinner at Padi, where we met the "old-school-beemer" dude with his gf and some friends. After that, we went to starhill and chilled out there while waiting for faiz and ali sadiq to join us. There's this old dude who was trying to hit on yaya and he asked her to join him for dinner. Went to Qba after that and there was this gay fight between the waiters there. Hillarious! That old dude and his "bodyguard" came to join us. After that, faiz drove us to Mcds and we had our supper. Around 3 something, we've decided to head back to our hotel. Checked out the next day.

Graduated finally!!

Pictures from SKA's Graduation Lunch at Nandos, Pavillion KL. Thanks to shadzy for belanja-ing us. I can't remember when was the last time I ate that much pun.







I love you beeeetiful people!

Since I dont have anything to do right now, I shall upload some of the pictures from recent activities. Starting from Nizar's 22nd Surprise Birthday Dinner.

Fact: Ariff is naturally a gay (can tell by the way he posed in this picture) :p

Guilt is perhaps the most painful companion of death

It was a happy day when it was my turn to take care of the baby. She was so playful, the prettiest thing I've ever seen. She was smiling and talking in her own language. After awhile, she looked sleepy and I put her in her net and sang her a lullaby. Fed her milk and she slept peacefully.

More or less 30 minutes later, I heard she cried and I took her out from the net and put her on the bed. She played with her toys and I didn't realize what happened next until I heard that loud sound.
A sound like something heavy fell down.
And then, I heard she cried. A loud cry and I know that my baby was in pain. A lot of pain.

I saw her on the floor. Screaming as loud as she could. My heartbeat raced as I rushed to pick her up and brought her close to me. Heard the screaming of my mom. She was literally screaming and was loosing her mind when she knew that the baby just fell down from the bed.

My aunt came and checked on the baby. She stopped crying after 20 minutes and we went to the clinic to let the doctor do some check-up. The doctor said its best if we bring her to the hospital and do some scanning but my dad refused to. I was left there, speechless still. Regretting every single stupid mistake I've done which led to her great pain. She's just 7 months and looking at her sobbing with her sad face, it kills me knowing that I could have avoid it.

She's a bit traumatized. There are bruises at her eyes, and there's a bit benjol on her left head. I can only pray and hope that she'll be fine and grow up healthily without any complications. I can never forgive myself if anything happen to her ever again.

Let this be a lesson to me, and perhaps all of us.

Kakak loves you sayang :(

got a call from haniza this afternoon. she told me that our ATP assignment was crap and we got quite crappy marks also. so we have to redo the assignment if we want to upgrade the marks.
i couldn't study at all after that.
i've been thinking, what went wrong.

assignments had been shiteous for this whole sem.
did terribly bad for IA and PSA.
carry marks also like crap.
and now we have to redo back the assignment.

i'm on the edge of breaking down, seriously.
spent the whole last weekend crying alone just thinking of whatever friggin crap i wrote in answering my final papers. and the possibility of failing those 2 papers, or maybe more. and the fact that i need to, no i mean, i MUST get at least 0.02 to improve my retarded cgpa.

i give up, okay. i seriously am. i just dont know what else to do, or who else to talk to. its too late to do anything. so much for the last straw. i'm a fuqn slacker! i'm at this point where i dont give a fuck for anything. i still have 3 more papers but who gives shit? i'm already a slacker so why bother right?

thats it. i'm going to watch tv and stuff myself with food and do whatever i want.
i'm done.

oh george clooney

since my sister keeps on bothering me to do this tag thingy, so here it goes

1) Do you think you're hot ?
nope

2) Upload your favourite picture of you!

3) Why do you like that picture?
because i look retarded?

4) When was the last time you ate pizza ?
e last month

5) The last song you listen to ?
If i were a boy

6) What are you doing right now besides this ?
watching The Perfect Storm

7) What name would you prefer besides yours ?
nik haniza can?

People to tag .
nisha
alina
wanie
boe messi
alwani

8) Who is number one?
my partner in crime during primary school

9) Number three is having a relationship with?
Dan the man! hahaha

10) Say something about number five?
bubur cha cha? lol

11) How about number four?
her left eye twitches when she gets mad. i bet its twitching now as she reads this ;p

12) Who is number two ?
super annoying sister and have i mentioned that her bf is a bapok? heeee :)

early birds will always get the worm

it was 5 minutes to noon, when i went to the kitchen to grab myself a decent breakfast.
then i saw a figure's trying to get itself out from the grills of the window.

MONKEYS!!!

he (or she) was a little bit consternated and jumped out of the window. my heart was still beating fast as i approached the dining table. the stupid monkeys took away my breakfast!
they took jemput2 pisang, butter, bananas, and rempeyek (its a type of kerepek for those who dont know what rempeyek is)

so i ended up skipping my breakfast and cooked something for lunch.
haihhhh. sad la :(

3 papers down. 3 more to go

i totally screwed my PSA and Investment papers. like seriously SCREWED!
and now i'm freaking out, thinking what if i fail and i have to resit for TWO papers plus, the resit examination will only be in the middle of march or april next year.
and its gonna totally screw my cgpa, thats for sure.

i've been having scary nightmares these past 2 days. or maybe i wasn't having nightmares pun since every thing was so real. sigh.

we got a new maid! yea~
well at least that's a good news. hopefully every one will be less pressured :)

oh another one! adik swallowed baby's muntah. HAHAHAHAHA. trying to be like badang, i presume.