stupid fucking joke.

i had to rush all the way to uia to print my work n send it to my lecturer before 12, which i didn't make it of course and ended up sending it at 1230.
Thank god i didn't crash onto something or wat because i was insanely unstable yesterday. had to drive to that shit place and i only got 20mins left. the only thing that kept me quarterly sane was my sister sitting beside me, grabbing anything she could grab tightly (so sorry adik).
well, someone thot that it would be funny to send me a msg that she wasn't able to open my mail and print it out. so without further thinking, i HAD to rush like a mad monkey and let me rephrase this, thank god i am here today safe and sound or else i might end up in some hospital or bilik mayat.
and then, today she told me that she sent it already and that i was supposed to call or msg her to check whether she was serious or not about the previous msg. how the hell should i know. i was freaking out when i saw the clock and i only had more or less one hour to get everything done.
so thank you for that wonderful morning joke.

and yes, its not funny.

so people, DO NOT ever ever pull a stupid mother fucking lame ass prank like that to me ever again. u would never know that stupid joke of yours might take someone's life.

clock's ticking

just got back from the holy land of uia. finished my last class at 930pm. and tomorrow i have to go back to the holy land to submit my assignment. yes, i am that rajin.

nothing much happened today. went to uia with aliaa but didn't go to 10am class because i haven't done my homework. malas okayy? so went to the room and slept. note that: i haven't done my homework still.
ok, lets cut the crap.

haniza called me and told me that megat junid died this morning. i've been hearing too many deaths that it scares the shit out of me. come to think about it, you may be look healthy and happy but before you know it, you could be lying down - dead. scary shit rite? and thinking that you're not even ready to go. *sigh*

i know that i cant escape death but hopefully, i'll be ready to meet Him when the time comes.
insyaAllah.

a tragic loss

this morning, got a msg from haniza:

"HEATH LEDGER IS DEAD"

i was startled at first and after regaining my consciousness, i called her. she asked me to check it online. so that's what i did.
HEATH LEDGER. altho i didn't know him personally, but he was one of the greatest actors. i remembered the first time i watched 10 things i hate about you and i noticed this one gorgeous lad, he was no one at that time.
this is so tragic. to lose his life at such a young tender age is a tragic loss. i feel so sorry for his family and his 2-year old daughter, matilda. growing up not knowing your dad. come on, she's just 2. u dont think she remembers her dad well rite?

dear heath, your talent is an inspiration to others. you will always be missed by all of us.
may you rest in peace.

it's a girl

sorry for the late update. been really busy lately with 7 days a week classes.
btw, the doctor has confirmed that the baby is a GIRL!
boboy was happy to know that he remains the only son in the family.
we haven't decide on a name yet but we're calling the baby tasha for now.

cant wait for april~

Happy Birthday Suraya kiss kiss

went to Delicious at OU just now to celebrate suraya's 22nd bday. it was fun and kecoh as usual. spent 50 bucks just for the food. damn mahal rite?

anyway, i have 3 exams next week and i haven't bought the text books. great no? sheesh.

slept at 3 something last night. had a movie marathon with the girls in our room. i love it. and we watched american pie beta house. it was SO VERY stupid but hilarious. lol. went to sg wang last night. shadz wanted to collect her phone which she sent for repair. i bought this red top from voir and i love the bright and vibrant colour. well, i've decided that i need to change and stop buying more black stuff. heee :)

this is it for now. i'm so tired. update soon. toodles~

went to subang parade just now to look for adik's pc.
and guess who i met?
its that freaky weirdo tengku! hahaha :p
i was hiding underneath my hair, afraid that he'd start the whole i-wont-let-you-go conversation thingy.
he was with his dad and sister. she's sooo cute and speaks english damn well. even better than him. thank god he didn't recognize me. i guess i look so different without tudung to him. hehe.
it gets so irritating when i told my parents about it. they were like "hanis, looks are not important. u should go for it" and "anak raja suka hanis and you're treating him like that? and he drives a bmw already? kena kahwin paksa ni". my dad came up with this theory that the weirdo is acting weirdly because he wants to find a wife that will accept him even though he's not normal as what a human being should be. *sigh*
parents nowadays. sheesh.

so yeah, mama bought a new pc for adik. guess we wont have to fight over the lappy after this.
i'm having a terrible flu. and my head is so sakit.
think i have to lie down for a while.
toodles~

p.s: i am SO very irritated by this one guy. dude, dont u have other things to do besides msging me? sheesh

small voice within

i cant believe u still have that effect on me. 2 years and yet i still have that goosebumps everytime ur name resounds.
how i wish i could turn back the time.
god, i miss him so much that it hurts.
5th dec will always be one of the happiest moments in my life.

please please. let me move on.
he's happy with his life and dont u think i deserve that too?
i cant seem to open up my heart to anyone after him.


its dumb, i know. but i've tried okay. been trying for fuqn 2 years and do u think i'm happy being like this? not being able to move on, stuck in the past. it sucks okay. but i dont have a choice.
deep down, i'm praying hard that maybe, just MAYBE, things would change one day.
perhaps i'm living in my own dreams but wth.
i know my limits. but its not wrong for a little hope no?

perhaps one day, i'll be able to leave my past behind and be a happier person

cinderellas

i am SO laughing my ass off. HAHAHAHA.

i was reading my cousin's older blog when i noticed this particular blog.
it was way back in 2003, raya time i think. we have an aunt who has this one peculiar attitude and she's not our favourite.
there was this one fine day, our moms and dads weren't at home (this happened in kota bharu) because they went to pasir puteh to visit our relatives there. so, there were 5 of us; nikiee, me, chik, abg hafiz and mona. aunt elvy and her sons were at home also at that time.
one thing about her, she loves to please people for her own benefits. well, obviously i dont give a damn but it certainly is my problem if she includes us in the picture.

so nak dijadikan cerita, she asked me, nikiee and chik to help her in the kitchen. mona dah gone, she had to help that psycho woman to jaga her anak2. hahaha. funny weh. we were reluctant to help her because we've planned eating outside for dinner. so we went inside our room and layan diri. this marvelous aunt just came into our room like its her mak-cousin-fren's punya room and said something that made us feel like a complete heartless creatures. thus, we went to the kitchen n helped her out.

she made us do work like a stepmother to cinderella okayy. i had to wash all the periuk kuali and sebagainya. chik had to potong onions and was crying the whole way. nikiee didn't do anything much (nyampah).

and then like angels sent from up above, our moms finally home. my mom was in complete shock and very much anger inside of her seeing her daughter di"kuli"kan membasuh kuali. so we just left our "chores" there and went upstairs while bitching about her. no one actually ate her cooking pun :p

it's definitely one of the "sweetest" memories.
to nikiee and chik: thanks for being there with me through thick and thin. we'll be laughing like mads again when we remember this incident. haha.

Happy Birthday Shadzy

went to ou last night to celebrate shadz's 22nd birthday. so old la u now shadzy b :D

anyhooo, had dinner at nandos and then went to rasta for shisha. met many familiar faces as well. haniza was really annoyed by this one bitch. haha.

i'm trying to upload the pics but i dont know what the fuck is wrong with it.
will try to upload it some other time.

welcoming 2008

my first entry for the year 2008. so sorry haven't been updating it for quite some time. was quite busy with stuff. well here goes,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

its 2008! can u believe it? and i'm gonna be 21 this year. woohooo~
legal for everything baby. heee.

as usual, i've made a list of new year's resolutions. crossed out a few resolutions made last year, hoping that my determination this year to actually accomplish my resolutions will be stronger (heh).

1. get a job and earn some real money
2. improve my cgpa and prolly graduate with hons (yea rite)
3. get into skills classes
4. be a better Muslim
5. contribute something for charity
6. send my gazillion magazines for recycle
7. cook something new and get a compliment for it
8. start buying gifts for birthdays
9. lose at most 10kgs by the end of the year
10. make more friends :D
11. be a McSaver (that means avoid spendthrift)
12. do something which i can be proud of
13. be a better daughter, sister, and friend
14. read more
15. meet someone who's worth it and fall in love (lol)

and the list goes on. but i better stop til there. it's not like i'm going to complete everything pun. heesh. well, at least i do have the intention to do those stuff, so i guess its better rite?

lastly, hope that this year will be better than 2007. no more drama please.
wishing everyone a Happy New Year!

love,
hanis