i'm back from the dead, guess you can say so considering my lack of updates recently.

parents brought us to bukit merah and penang for holidays last week. nothing much to write about the trips tho. except that baby lisya was so happy and excited playing in the swimming pool.

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that
I should have never thought of you

I seriously should have never thought of you
*sigh*

Paramore

and yet, another boring night.
was chatting with haniza just now and she told me that she went to the interview with the Asian Finance Bank this morning. It went well, and now she has to meet up with the CEO. Good luck hanzo :)

Met the cousins, nikiee and chik, this afternoon for lunch at wendy's jaya one. It's been a while and since chik's going to start working in forever 21 and nikiee's counting days to leave us for australia, I thought maybe we should meet up and catch up on things.

Oh, and I'm gonna be away for 3 days starting tomorrow. Parents bringing us somewhere on a vacation before the school starts next week.
And, I am getting so sleepy right now.
Will update more when I come back.
Have a nice day every one and a Merry Christmas!

I miss going to classes.
I miss having lunch with the girls.
I miss lazing in the room, gossiping with haniza.
I miss the crazy stuff my girls and I have done during the 4 years.
I miss the outings and random stuff.
I miss SKA.
I miss diploma guy.

I miss my uni life.

It's been two days now. Went to UIA yesterday to settle some stuff. Nothing much has changed, except for more unfamiliar faces walking around especially in econs. Had lunch with aliaa, boe, haniza and hazman. Met other friends as well. Then, boe and aliaa had to excuse themselves to go to respective classes. And, believe it or not, I envied them. I would love to attend classes again. Call me crazy but seriously, I'm not talking shit here.

After that, went to A&R to apply for the full transcript. We didn't know that we had to settle the clearance thingy to apply for the transcript. So, with baju kurung and heels, we walked across the street and climbed up and down the stairs to get our clearance form stamped from several departments around UIA. I swear I didn't know it was a whole lot of job just to get one friggin transcript. In the end, we still cant get the transcript sebab tak sempat and the fact that we "owe" UIA some money. Apparently, although we've completed our degree in 3 and a half years, we still have to pay the tuition fees for the 8th sem and its friggin stated in the friggin contract. So, yeah. Since we didnt have the money at that time, we couldn't get the blardy transcript.

well done, uia!

It's a draw.
And so I thought that we're gonna win tonight. But its way better than to lose just like manchester united lost to arsenal in their latest match last month aite?

Had to send my sister to her guitar class this afternoon but joshua wasn't home when we reach there. So, had to drag her to Jaya One because I've made plans to meet up with aizat. It's been a while since I last heard from him. Spent almost an hour and man, did we talk a lot. Thanks for every thing aizat especially for pointing IT out for me. Thanks again for being such a sport and a fun companion. And, we sure did have fun reminiscing the good old times. Pity adik had to torture herself for more than an hour listening to our supposedly "dull" conversation.

Uni's opening today. I'm sure aliaa's all excited about it. I have to go to UIA tomorrow to settle some stuff. So yeah, i know, it's such a sad thing to see me around in uia on the first day of the sem. But, life goes on. Toodles~

4 am and I am hyper as ever. every one's sleeping soundly and the only sound I can hear right now is the typing sound from the keyboard. I was extremely tired just now so I've slept from 8pm to almost 10pm. Well, that explains the hyperness state I am at right now.

Got a msg from ali this afternoon. He said he was on his way to shah alam and asked me if I'd be free to chill. But I was out with my dad and siblings to shop for their school stuff.

Baby Lisya is making it harder for people to please her. Sometimes I just feel like screaming my head off but then, she just have to make that cute, irresistable face and that cuddly voice of hers. And there were times when I was so extremely sleepy, but then she woke up and her round eyes gave me that goo-goo-ga-ga look, I just had to pick her up and play with her although I could just let her continue her nap.


She's just TOO irresistable. *sigh*
I'm so going to spoil this kid, seriously.
oh, and I'm very hungry right now.
Damn.

A birthday msg for my favourite boy

HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY SAYANG!

My baby just turned 11 a few hours ago. How time flies. He's all grown up it brings tears to my eyes *drama*.

He used to be the baby in the family, before baby lisya was born la of course. God, he was my baby for 10 years okay. lol. His birth 11 years ago brought joy to us all. My parents really wanted a boy since they already have 2 girls. So, you can imagine how pampered he is, considering now that he's the only boy in the family.

I hope you'll grow up to be a wise man and remember, you have BIG responsibilities to the family. Hopefully mama and papa will get you that birthday pressie you want sayang. I'll make sure that you'll have a blast tomorrow but please dont push it okay? I love youuuu my baby boy!

HAPPY 4 YEARS ANNIVERSARY!

4 years and going strong.

To Hazman, I know you're not gonna read this. But please jaga my haniza okay? I can never imagine anyone that will make a better partner for Haniza besides you.

And to my baby, 4 years yo! hahaha. been there from the start and witnessed most of it. you know what I mean. heee :)
I hope you'll have a jolly good time and have fun k sayang?

All the best to you both.

The 7 Deadly Scenes

Woke up early this morning as usual. Had only 4 hours of sleep, which is quite normal for me especially during hols. Bathed the baby and did some other stuff before sending adik to her guitar class. I was quite bored so I've decided to go to Haniza's house while waiting for adik to finish her class. It's been a while since I last came to her house and i have to admit, I miss Auntie Yan (I curi your mom can ah haniza? haha).

Haniza looks healthier alhamdulillah. She's been sick for too long, i guess. Had lunch at her house before I headed back to sect 17 to pick adik up.

Later in the evening, we went to watch Shamir's play, The 7 Deadly Scenes at KLPAC. It was a great play, with some scary elements, and Shamir was really G.R.E.A.T.
We had so much fun. Hazman enjoyed only the first scene tho ;p
It was fun to finally meet up with the rest of them; aira, wani, dan, khair, an and the others after so long.
After that, had our late dinner at Rasta. Had my fav nasi goreng cili padi but Shamir finished it up for me (thanks shamirrr!)





What a great night :)

Dad bought me a perfume and some make up stuff from Christian Dior for my birthday. Thanks a bunch, pa! And I'm still bugging my mom to buy me iPod Touch as my birthday gift. Oh, and adik still owes me a birthday gift as well. Cant wait ;p

Birthday card from Haniza

Mama's birthday pressie

Birthday present from dad :)

Mom's birthday ice cream cake

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY MAMA!!

Mom just turned 43 last tuesday and we forgot to wish her earlier as we're too distracted layaning Boboy, who just got circumcised the day before. So, we've decided to surprise her with a cake later in the evening and daddy bought her one whole make up set from Chanel. Luckily, she was happy with the gift and the surprise.

Thanks for every single thing, ma! You're the greatest and we love u dearly :)

activities during the last weekend

attended baby hannani's kenduri aqiqah last saturday. nikiee and chik couldn't attend the kenduri, so I was layaning diri all the way. So many unfamiliar faces. Thank God we left early.

Later in the evening, went to baby yana's 1st birthday party at kak yan's place. They had it at the pool side and god, the place is incredibly beautiful! Small cousins enjoyed swimming while the rest of us had a good time eating and chatting among us. It's been a while since our last family gathering. Didn't get to snap many pictures tho.

Pictures credit to nikiee.

A Sincere Apology

I realized that I have offended a few people in some of my blog posts and I would like to make an open apology to those who I have offended. Clearly, there was a HUGE misunderstanding which led us up to this stage.

Sometimes, people say ugly things when their sanity and mind are driven by anger. But that is not an excuse to say bad things about others as well. That is the purpose of this blog, it is a place where I let my emotions out. These things mentioned here are not for permanent. I write because I need to pour my feelings out somewhere so that I would feel better and hopefully, forget about it.

Honestly, I've never thought that people, besides my family and close friends, could actually found my blog among millions of other blogs. But well, I think words spread faster before you can say "dinosaur".

I'm not here to make things worse than it is now. I admit that it was repugnant for me to say things which I have said earlier in my previous posts and I truly regret it. I'm sorry that things turned out this way and I take my part of the blame.

To Mr. F, I am so sorry for the harsh and rude things I've said. It's never my intention to refer those stuff to your parents, I swear. And to her, it's true what people say that you have to get to know that person before you can judge them. I guess I judged too early and I have never been anything but happy being friends with you. I dont want you to think that whatever I have said to you before were all lies because as I got to know you more, I saw what the others see in you. My sincere apology to you if I've said things which have hurt your feelings.

And to "Ahmad Rooney's dad", you have been one of the nicest friends I have ever met and I am sorry that I've hurt you in any way. Being your friend for the past years have been one of the best things that have ever happened in my life and thanks to you, my final year in uni ended with lots of good memories. And no, I am not being sarcastic or trying to be someone else.

To the rest of them, from the bottom of my heart, I am truly sorry for whatever I have caused. Its just a matter of one thing leads to other bigger things. And thus, here we are.

Sorry.

Once upon a Christmas Tree & A Tale of a Psycho Freak

Was in Ikano just now with my family to find a swimming suit for baby lisya. Bought a swimming suit and a bikini for her after hours of searching. Mama even bought her a bath robe, like one suit la like that. So after that, went to Curve to see the GIANT christmas tree. It was huge alright but not the tallest lah. I bought two dresses and parents got baby lisya a walker for her to practice walking (konon je lah, berdiri pun tak pandai lagi).

After that, Mama suggested that we would have our dinner at Ikea. And this is when the psycho tragedy started. So I was walking to the drink dispenser to refill my drink when suddenly I heard this dude called me.

"Heyyy, psst psst"
I looked at him from the corner of my eye. A nerdy looking guy, probably in his late 20s, wearing white office shirt and black pants with a hot dog on his hand. I ignored him and kept on walking. Used a different path to walk back to my seat and I told my parents about it. So we continued having our dinner as usual.

While packing up, Mama called my name and she asked me to see this father and son behind my back. I looked up at her and I saw that DUDE, again. He was on his way out but he stopped and turned to stare at me when he heard my mom talking to me. He stood so still and so near to my mom, who was holding the baby at that time, and I totally panicked. I was scared he might stabbed my mom with something sharp like a needle or knife or something OR he might snatched the baby away from my mom. But most of all, I was REALLY scared looking at him. His eyes were like big and round, staring at me like he was about to eat me or something. He looked at me with this interest, like he was about to rape or kill me right there and then. So I turned around and pretended to look at that father and son my mom showed me.

After almost 45-50 seconds, Mama noticed someone was standing next to her. She gave him that questioning, disturbing look. He looked surprised and he smiled at my mom. He mumbled something, I couldn't hear it, and walked off. From outside, he kept on staring at me and it freaked the hell out of me. I told my mom, that's the guy I was telling them about. She told me that the psycho said the door wouldn't open and that's why he was standing there. Yeah right, freak! Papa came back and I told him about it. I swear, I was really freaking out and I can still remember those eyes staring straight at me.

Crazy, I know! I'm grateful I was out with my family at that time. Imagine if I was out with my friends and he could've waited for me to go to the parking lot and do terrible stuff to me. What I'm trying to say here is, pleaseeee be careful whenever you're out. Always observe the people there. There may be smarter psychos out there, giving you no hints that they're ready to pounce on you. If you're out with friends, ask a guyfriend to walk you to the car. NEVER walk to the car alone!

And I'm disturbed when I realized that I DO attract weirdos. Freaky init? Oh, and I'm gonna ask my dad to get me that pepper spray just in case. What a freaky experience.

Raya Haji

went back to kelantan for raya haji this year. got stuck in massive traffic jams especially the one in gua musang-kuala krai. it took us 14hours to reach kota bharu from kl. nikiee and chik were in kl during the whole raya, so I was left alone in kota bharu doing nothing except eat and eat and eat.

It's been so many years since we last celebrated raya haji in kelantan and I totally forgot how boring it was and still is celebrating raya haji in kelantan. So boring I'm surprised that I survived the whole 4 days I was there. It was raining and we didn't get to go out and they only cooked daging korban, which explains where that additional 3kgs came from.

We came back on Tuesday and used the Terengganu route. And Oh Emm Gee! Terengganu is soooo breathtaking please? The beach, and the penyu sanctuary, and the beach! It's sooo much better than my hometown in kelantan, not kidding. Like very soothing and calming, i likeee! It took us almost 11hours to reach shah alam.

Happy 21st Birthday to Meeeeee!

okay forgive me for the late updates. been very busy with stuff, it feels like ages since i've last updated.

i've just turned 21 last week (yeaa!)
anddddd, i had the loveliest surprise birthday party from my darling bestfriends with the help from my family. I totally had no idea at all. Thanks A LOT girls for every thing. it was a simple party but i really enjoyed the company and the crazy stuff we did that night. Thanks for the effort and hard work.

Now, the pictures. There are several explicit photos but I'd rather not upload it since most of us have agreed to keep it private (murni will explode if she found out her naughty pictures are being circulated online)

Preparation

Muka terkejut please? haha

Haniza's infamous red thingy

Shadz's pink thingy, yaya's yellow bazooka, Queen H, Kadam Murni, Rock Star Hanzo?, Aliaa with her newborn baby, Sofia with ermm her round thingy?

Yummy birthday cake, thanks to haniza and aliaa :)


Perempuan "MELAYU" Terakhir Wannabeeeessss

Seriously, I love you girls so blardy fuqn much! Mwahsss

Like OMG! I didn't know Orlando Bloom has been dating Miranda Kerr for so long now. And they're engaged! Uuhhh.. they're gonna make pretty babies :)