I've been thinking for these past few days and decided to just leave every thing, well perhaps for these few months. Need some time to figure out what went wrong. Maybe I'm just not that strong to face all these crap and pressure. Oh, and I've deleted my FB account. Lol! Bloody fuqn emotionalization. Pfft!

How I wish I could just stop working and go somewhere nice and sunny where I can spend time alone.

Convo Pictures

Some pics from the Convocation Day.

Pics courtesy of Nazir and Daddy :)

I have never EVER been this depressed. I feel like there's nobody to talk to, and its not because there's none but I just don't know how to let it all out. I feel nauseated with every thing and I get pissed at every thing easily. I just don't want to feel like this because it hurts. And it's not even the time of the month for God's sake!

I just want to get out of this box, leave every thing, and walk off.

Happy Convocation Day!!!

It's SUNDAY! It's the 11th!!!

And,

It's CONVOCATION DAY!!!!


I only slept for 3 hours because I was too excited, and still am, to finally graduate officially.
Yesterday, picked up my baju kurung for convo and headed to OU to find a new pair of shoes for Papa.

I got two huge bouquet of flowers from my friend and Lutfi :)
And I was asking my mom to buy me flowers too but she gave me a better offer. She was like,"Would you prefer a bouquet of roses which won't last that long or a Tag Heuer watch?"

I'd be really dumb if I pick the flowers instead of the watch innit?
:))))

So, yeah. I'm getting ready in less than an hour because we need to reach there by 1pm and knowing me, it'll take forever for me to get ready by then.

I'll upload the pics as soon as possible.

Happy Graduation Day to us SKA!!!!!!!!!!!

(except Sofia, lol)

Pre Convo BBQ Party

Had a very hectic week and finally I can squeeze in some time to write a proper post.

Last weekend, Shadz threw a little pre-convo bbq party and invited us SKA with some of her Bosnian and Iranian friends. Had some good laugh and good food and I didn't really enjoy the whole party sadly.

But here are some photos from the party.

I always thought that I can distract myself from being super depressed most of the time. I always blame PMS for turning me into this crazy emotional wacko bitch. And I used to have my best friends around me all the time when I'm feeling so down and starting to be merepek.

Work is killing me.
So does this LDR. And I'm not sure of what I really want right now. Every thing is so mixed up and I can't even think straight. I just need some excitement in life right now. I'm turning 22 and I already feel like an old woman who has worked for almost 30 years of her life.

A grumpy depressed old woman at the age of 22 (sigh).

Nikiee (if you're reading),
I really really am missing you. And I'm saving one packet of duit raya just for you.
Come back home soon please?

Ah, it's the month end closing tomorrow. Gonna be a looooong week.
Bohringgg.

Weekend please come quick!!

xoxo