Distraught. Frantic. Disappointed.

A sudden dismay filled my lungs and made it so hard for me to breathe. I felt so distracted that I spent the whole morning in the office, staring blankly at the screen. The flashing images of that one person that used to have that one special spot in my heart, laughing and smiling oh so sweetly with her friends, distracted me from doing my work.

I looked again at my phone. A picture posted by her friend who was half of her age, showing her and that girl both giving their 'best' pose. Who is this lady? Why did she change so drastically? What actually happened to her that lead to this? So many questions have been running through my mind and I felt nothing but plain numb. I need to get a report done to submit it by the end of the day but I couldn't get myself to focus on it. And I felt a rush of warm liquid started to fill both of my eyes and I knew I need to shake myself from thinking about it.

I rushed myself to the ladies and the warm liquid just came flowing down my cheeks. Thank God there was no one in there at that time. I looked at the mirror and I saw a weak, feeble, pathetic looking person crying her heart out and I knew I lost myself again. I promised myself time and time again that I would never ever see this weakling again. But why couldn't I hold myself together and just ignore her stupidity of destroying everything and everyone that have ever loved her?

Because I care.
Because I still love you and I can never throw even an inch of you from my life because you are the reason of my existence.
Because no matter how bad our hearts you have crushed, tore and ripped apart, you have once loved and cared for us for years and we have to live in those memories to avoid from hating you.

And, we are still here, waiting for the old you to come back to us.
Though we are not really sure when will that time be.
But, as long as there is a glimpse of miracle and hope in our hearts, we will still be here.

I don't care if you want to go and enjoy life and what's left of it. I won't bother if you want to spend all your money on things for your satisfaction. As long as you show us some love and affection that we have longed for since you became a stranger to us. But the constant lying that has been happening, it's killing us. It's killing our love for you and it's crushing our trust for you. And the fact that you're shutting us out of your life makes the distance between us become more obvious and soon it will be even harder to fix.

Hiding something will get you nowhere and lying sure as hell won't make you a happier person. So go ahead do whatever you like and leave us. Soon, there will come a day when you suddenly realize your mistake and what you used to have, and you will finally come back. But don't be surprised if you can't find us anywhere because if that happens, you know that we're done waiting for you.