i'm preparing myself mentally and physically for tomorrow.
8-10 hours journey to kelantan is haunting me and i cant sleep which is crazy considering the fact that i have to wake up as early as 7am tomorrow.

i am mentally stressed out, help please?

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

raya's in 2 days time and i'm still not in the mood, unfortunately. just thinking of the long journey is making me sick. and the fact that i'm in that "time" of the month is bothering me too. sigh.

i have thousands of assignments which are due after raya and well, lets just stop here. i dont think its appropriate to whine and complain about my miserable-ness and skip the whole enjoying raya phase.

so yes, i'm looking forward to celebrate raya this year. and the fact that we'll be celebrating this year's raya with the newest member in the family is certainly boosting the excitement :)
and oh, the food! the Kelantanese food! so yummy and fattening la of course.
and the best part, DUIT RAYA!! bring in that mooooolahhh people. hahaha

ok ok. so raya is FUN! especially when ur kampung is in kelantan la rite. You'll get to experience the true meaning of raya. stuck in traffic jam, buka with KFC in gua musang, nasi dagang for breakfast on the first day of raya, families photography sessions, camwhoring with cousins, and a lot more.

will update the blog after raya with loads of pictures and gossips (trust me, my big family in kelantan is famous for being oh-so-very-dramatic)

til then,
cheerio~

last post of the day.

i skipped all classes today (haniza told me to). so around 12 something, i was ready to go to shadz's house. see, we had to go to putrajaya holdings for an interview regarding our stupid seminar assignment and that's why every one had to meet up at shadz's place.

so, under the blazing schorching hot sun, i gathered all my semangat to drive. as soon as i past the guard's place (at monterez la), saw from the rear mirror that he was like pointing his finger to my car but i kept on driving, ignoring whatever he was pointing at. then suddenly, i felt something was definitely wrong and the allignment was crappish. the car kept on going to the left side so i stopped and checked if there's anything wrong.

to my horror, one of the tyres was flat-like completely. i was more annoyed by the sweat rather than the flat tyre, seriously. so i called my dad and he told me to wait there and that he's coming. so i waited but being the good daughter i have always been (masuk bakul angkat sendiri please?) i offered to drive back home considering all the trouble he had to go through if he was to drive all the way to pick me up.

thank god i was not in the middle of the highway or something. or even worse, the tyre just burst ke. so i msged haniza and told them to carry on.

so that's how i spent my monday afternoon.
how lovely~

5 more weeks and counting

spent the whole day working on my resume and cover letter. did some research on job vacancies and found out that jobstreet is rather an interesting website and i've been browsing through for the whole day.

so yeah, i've applied for some positions just to make me feel better.

if u ask me, i'll say i'm ready :)

i just love family gathering :)

last saturday, we had iftar/family gathering at nikiee's place. it's been quite a while and oh my, everyone did change. zaki got thinner, and umm well maybe only zaki changed.

hehe the food was good but the dessert was better. but nothing could compare with the company i had. my sayangs; nikiee and chik. its been like what, 10 months since the last time we hung out together? heeee.

i am all excited for raya already!

went to andalus for buka puasa just now with haniza and raf. not many people were there and we had beriyani chicken which is the only thing i eat whenever we go there. but the problem arose when the bill came.

for 2 plates of beriyani and one cup of moroccon mint tea, RM40.25?

gotta be kidding rite? so being unsatisfied with the total amount we called that dude and asked for the billing details. and guess what? one beriyani chicken costs us RM16 per plate and the tax is 15% and they even charged us 10% service charge. melampau la rite? it used to be the best place to eat moroccon food at affordable price 3 sems ago. guess the price of oil affected them as well, ay?

well, i'm not sure if most of u know that LIVERPOOL actually won again a few days ago. They were playing against Marseilles.
Before the match, Faiz and I made a bet (it was his idea btw). He has to belanja me a pancake meal and a drink (dah la complete pulak tu) if liverpool wins and i have to belanja him if liverpool loses. so we agreed to go paddington one of these days.


well, not much left to say except,
psst faiz, i'm waiting for my pancake.
heeeee :)

i saw him just now.
he smiled at me and i said hi.

sigh. wish i still have more time left to make things more favourable for at least, myself.

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY SAYANG!

geez, time flies so fast no? still cant believe my baby's turning 17 today. hope that you'll have a fantabulous birthday and hopefully we'll do something fun to celebrate your birthday k sayang?
lovesss

your cousin,
hanis

went for iftar at some pakistani restaurant just now in setapak with the girls and shamir. well, the food was not bad (prolly because i was really hungry) and it was a buffet for only RM10. so quite okay la.
i miss andalus :(

after iftar, went back to uia and lepak at nescafe, the most hip and happening lepak place in uia. lol.
took some pics which i am quite lazy to upload right now. and shamir was like the joke-cracker machine. it was really nice to hang out with the girls and laughed so hard, it's been a while now, no?

i dont blame cupid for all these. it just happened.
someone asked, "have you not learned anything from your previous mistakes?"
well truthfully, i didn't want it to happen. but like i said before, it just did.
but i'm not saying that i'm head over heels or i'm losing my mind over this guy which i barely even know.
it's too early for that, i admit it. but, i miss the thrills and feelings i used to have almost 3 years ago.
and i don't expect anything from this, mind you.
and maybe he already has a girlfriend, i don't give a shit because i know that there are a lot of constraints and limitations which made me realized that, i don't need to go through all that anymore.

when he's around, my whole body knows it. I'll keep talking or doing some stupid shit, but my mind will have no idea of what i'm saying.
or maybe i'm just addicted to the pain of wanting something that i can't have.

so, just let me enjoy this last few moments before the final semester ends :)

sweet victory

*cough*
drum rolls please..

and,

LIVERPOOL WONNNNN!!!!!

yes people, liverpool won 2-1 against Manchester United in tonight's match.
God, it feels soooooo good!
take that, all of MU's cocky fans. *evil laugh*
ryan babel, u're our hero :)
for full report click here

and to all liverpool supporters, here's a little something for us to celebrate tonight's sweet victory.

She-Man

well okay.
like seriously, dont u think this is so gross?

I FINALLY CUT MY HAIR SHORT

i cant believe i actually let them cut my hair and obviously my face looks like ikan buntal-ish. sigh.
well, i did this for the sake of my hair. it's been so dry and rosak since forever and it took me almost 2 years to come to this decision to cut my hair short. seriously, i think i look like crap and that's why i don't even bother to snap a pic of my new hair pun.
but at least i can feel it rejuvenating. hahaha.
next in my to-do list,
colour my hair :)

oh, have i mentioned that i didn't get the chance to choose kain for my baju raya this year? apparently, my mom and my sister went to do some shopping without my presence and they bought kain for MY baju raya. unbelievable, i know. i dont know if i'm exaggerating or what but i am very particular in choosing my clothes. of course, most of the time my mom would give the last say but AT LEAST i get to see it before actually purchasing it. and now, siapa susah? i jugak la rite. she told me the kain is very expensive so what's left for me to say?
long story cut short, no pictures of me on that day capiche?

fugly short hair, baju raya of not my choice:
surely this raya is going to be the most EXCITING ever.

I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

guess what?

after almost 4 years of studying in UIA, i finally got to access the internet from my room!
quite sad la but i am so excited. imagine we've waited for so long and finally, in my final semester, they provide internet connection for the students. sigh.

its nearly 1 am and i have 8 am class tomorrow morning. so off to bed i shall. will update soon~

xoxo

SHE'S 5 MONTHS TODAYYYY!!!!!

i swear i'm so not tired of posting a blog entry for her every month. but so sorry for the old picture. couldn't find time to snap pics of her nowadays. so updates on her, hmmm. she can sing now! hahaha. cute la rite? whenever my dad sings to her, she'll be like konon-konon nya nak ikut la. so cute i swear. and she loves to scream.
she's much more chubbier than her in this pic.

life is so beautiful with her around.

a perfect start

After years of waiting for the right time to say a simple hello to him, i finally did. but it turned ugly when he looked surprised or maybe, scared, when i said hi to him yesterday after class.
humiliation! that's what i felt and i even thought of changing to other university. hahaha.
later that night, hazman wanted to have dinner at nandos so we went to alpha angle in wangsa maju. after dinner, went to starbucks to find some materials for ATP assignment.

and then,
there he was. i saw him walking (so fuqn macho okayy) into starbucks and i acted cool, ignoring his presence due to the major humiliation. and surprisingly, he noticed me and finally, he said hi.
i said hi and suddenly we both got into a conversation which lasted for hmmm 10-15 minutes, i think. i swear he looked soooo cute and his smile, awhhh.

perfect picture.
him, a good old hot chocolate and a priceless conversation.

to haniza, hazman and rafiah.
thanks a lot lot LOT! i love u guys so much.

i just love shah alam

just now, went to bkt jelutong with angah to buy dinner for the whole family. then angah wanted to buy tissue and some stuff from mydin mart so we walked from kayu manis to mydin mart. on our way back to the car, there's this boy (prolly just finished SPM kot) at the back of secret recipe waving madly at us. we ignored him obviously and i guess he got tired of the endless waving.
and suddenly

SOMBONGGGGGGG!!!

we were like, wtf? and looked at each other before laughed our asses off. he screamed so loud that i thought he was at the back running to strangle us or something. i'm sure that boy was pretty annoyed and bengang because we were laughing like orang gila at him. so immature and stupid although its super friggin hilarious in the end.
to that boy, thanks for brightening up our dull night :)

last night, angah brought my grandma home from the hospital. so things at home will be a little bit more tensed from now on. not to say that my grandma is a burden but there will be additional tasks for all of us now. and let me put it this way, being me is not easy.

i feel more content nowadays- although i've been pretty busy doing chores at home and assignments. OMG! assignments!! shit screw hole. i haven't started a thing yet! curses~
ok ok. i will be updating later after i finish doing some research to get materials for my assignment.

til then, toodles~

my hair is so fuqn merepek right now. pfft.
i think i'm gonna try something new for this coming raya.
a hair cut prolly? a really SHORT one. teehehe.

we'll just wait n see ok?

there's a new family member.

introducing, ratatouille!
a rat, formerly residing in my neighbour's house but was chased out a couple of weeks ago and he (or maybe she) didn't know where else to go and voilà, he chose my house (such an honour)

it's the size of a newborn kitten, u know those hairless tiny creatures which cant barely open her eyes tu. yeap, that big. and i caught a glimpse or two of the ratatouille and gawd, dont let me mention about the tail. its as long as *gasp* i better stop myself from talking about the tail because personally, i think that's the most gross part of it.

and daddy doesn't want to do anything about it, well he bought some racun and glue for the rodent but nope, still no action from mr. superdad.
it's such a hassle that i have to make sure that every plates and glasses and periuk belanga and cuttleries HAVE to be washed because god knows what else have been 'infected' by those dirty paws (do u actually call those as paws?)
AND, the crap he left lying all over the kitchen and the smell, harum mencucuk hidungku ini.
not to forget the eerie feeling crawling underneath my skin whenever i have to go into the kitchen late at night or VERY early in the morning. the thoughts of the rat running between my legs and crawl its way up to my face freaks the shit out of me. boleh phobia kotttt!

i hope the rat will soon find a more suitable place to live (hmmm, say next door?)

thoughts

i have spent almost 4 hours trying my very best to read a couple of short accounting articles and yet, i have not managed to even finish reading one.

so i asked myself, do i really want to be an accountant?
what made me chose this stream rather than anything else?
or is it because it's written as my fate although i don't enjoy it even one bit?

and i came to this,
i have no answer to those questions.
i guess all this talking about work is freaking me out. my friends and i had a few conversations about what we're gonna do after graduating and most of them already have plans.
and leaving me wondering, am i the only one here who is still clueless about every thing?

to work or to study.
seriously, i can't picture myself working in the near future.
but to study, i'm not sure if i want to continue studying right after grad (agak penat la rite?)
turning 21 and still, i cant make a single friggin decision for myself, and i am oh so pissed!
how i wish i dont have to grow up so fast and let others make the decisions for me so that i dont get all the blames when something that came from my decision goes wrong.
every thing seems so beautiful when life is less complicated, no?

Happy Ramadhan Mubarak to all Muslims!

status: having gastric. of all days la rite? sigh