5 more weeks to go.

i am so sick. i have a running nose and feeling a bit drowsy :(
probably due to losing too much blood.

i had to bring my colleagues out for lunch just now. they wanted to go to SJ but i told them i was too lazy to drive there. so we went to giant instead and had kfc for lunch.

had a terrible day at work (as usual).
i said something which i wasn't supposed to say it out loud, but i did- very dumb!
this one b**** kept on making me feel guilty. i said i was sorry la idiot.
she just hates me from the first day, and taking this opportunity to make every one to hate me too.
or maybe i'm just exaggerating?
whatever la. we'll see on monday ok.

my internet connection was being a bitch this couple of days, so i didn't manage to update my blog. i had so many things to tell but i forgot :(

to wanie,
i saw the white dress u bought for tasha's bday thingy. it's so prettyyy but i'd prefer the one from zara tu. that zara dress tu really enhances ur ermm, boobies should i say?
LOL. kidding la babe. but the one u bought pun cantik jugak.

ok, i really need to get some sleep. i cant even see the keyboard pun.
toodles~

My 100th post, finally!

someone asked me out for lunch today :)
but he's kinda old lah so i didn't go because i was worried that things would get weird and people might talk, no?

so friggin pissed rite now. i have dozens of important emails that i need to respond to but since, god knows why, i just cant seem to access my email. curse this fuqn technology! pfft.

the girls are coming to my house this sunday (yeay!)

will update soon, promise :)

loves

this morning, this woman in the HR dept told me that i MIGHT actually get allowance each month. exciting, no? but not as much as what my other friends are earning. its gonna be around rm150 per month. kinda sad la but hey, money IS money rite? heeeeee.

my supervisor belanja me KFC for lunch. had my lunch with the rest of the executives and the manager in the store room! lol. its kinda weird seeing these people wearing blazers, having their lunch in the store room. but it was fun although the place wasn't really appropriate.
i guess i'm starting to like working here.

went to haniza's house just now. felt bad for not going to her bday celebration last saturday :(
i swear that poor girl's getting thinner each time i see her.
spent more than 2 hours at her house. had dinner there too.
thanks to aunt yan for that yummy dinner.
oh, and i met nino, haniza's cat. he's cute and cuddly except the fact that i'm a little scared of cats especially if they go cuckoo. *sigh*

ok. i just bought 4 tops and spent my allowance for may just like that.
i so have to control my spending. sheesh.

oh yes, and haniza told me that someone gave me (so far) the nicest compliment ever.
thank you so much for that :)

dearest oznah

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY HANIZA!
she's 22 now :)
my friend, my "mom", my roommate, my classmate, my sister, my confidante.
i still remember our very first conversation, in english class back in matric.
we had to introduce each other to the other classmates and being haniza, she didn't even bother much about it.
its kind of weird to think about it again, if i had not met her, i dont think i would be the person i am today.
and i am grateful til this day that i've found her.

i have so many memories of us both playing inside my head as i'm typing. i just don't know which one to choose.
i have always been her box of memories, and we will reminisce the good old days and laugh and laugh until it's 12am in our room and we'll get too tired to study for our quizzes. (no wonder we did bad for our exams ;p)

she, who taught me the meaning of friendship. my macho girl.
its funny how fate works in its own way.

to you,
celebrate this day with joy and pride for you have become the most wonderful person, inside and out.
yes, you're not perfect but its the imperfection and sincerity that have made you loved by every single person who knows Haniza Hazer.
have a wonderful year and god bless.
i.love.you.
*hugs*

your friend,
hanis

its sunday now, which means that i have to go to work on the next day :(
sucks.

i bet the girls had so much fun at skybar celebrating haniza's 22nd bday while i stayed at home watching akademi fantasia. yes, its kinda obvious that i couldn't go, the exact same thing haniza said to me this evening.
and i expect that they wont be coming to see the baby tomorrow or anytime soon.
its ok, i understand. every one's busy, no?
hopefully anyone of u can make it to her 5th birthday perhaps, and then again, maybe not.

i've gained 3 kgs in 1 month, and gaining more day by day.
and my mom just told me that she got an invitation from her best friend to attend this supposedly really "important" occasion next month.
and i dont have anything to wear.
of course i have nice dresses hanging in my closet but i look hideous in any of those dresses.
i cant really fit into any of them nicely without any bulge showing now that i've gained weight.

so i went through several magazines, searching for those articles on loosing weight and such.
exercise. i dont think i can afford to do any more crunches or jog or swim now that i'm working.
i will be dead tired if i do. *sigh*
diet? no can do. i'm one person who can never stick to one diet. because i love food so much it hurts to say no to those yummy food.

but with the party's coming next month and time waits for no man,
do i really have other options?

it's been 2 years now and its coming back for no reason at all.
no, i dont miss YOU at all. its been 2 years, oh no wait, 3 years!
and i am SO over you.

but its just that feeling i've longed for since u left.
that feeling of having someone that u can trust.
someone who would be there for u no matter what and when.
someone whom you can rely on and would never judge u no matter what.
someone whom u can confide in.

that old mushy feeling.
i.miss.that.

you've turned me into who i am now.
i am stronger, undeniably.
but i've lost the will to love, to care for someone else besides myself.
i became someone who's afraid to express her own feelings.
i lost hope, completely.

until the day comes, i will remain cold.
until he finds me, i will be emotionless.
until love found me, i will keep on waiting even for a hundred years (if i can live that long).

the one who will love me for who i am and what i am not.
the one whom i can argue with day and night.
that open arms welcoming me, providing me warmth and security.
i can be myself around him, not faking a single thing just to make him stay.
he who laughs with me, cries with me, cares for me.
that simple question that always have a comforting effect like "sayang, how's ur day?"
compliments me when i'm having my worst hair day just to make me feel better.
saying sweet things when i'm having a bad day at work.
encouraging me to improvise myself so that i'll be a better person day by day.
cancel the plans he made with his friends just to look after me when i'm sick.
looks at me with so much love inside of him when i'm not looking.
telling his friends that he wants me to be the mother to his children.

and after 50 years of marriage,
he looks at me in the eyes. that same deep stare he gave me 50 years ago with the same feeling of love, only now, it is much stronger.
telling me how beautiful i still am to him, despite of all the wrinkles on my face.
saying that he loves me and that how grateful he is to be loved by me.

that's all i'm asking for.
and what's a girl got to do to make her dreams come true?
she will keep on waiting, silently, wishing really hard that God will give her a chance live out her dreams.

my new maid requires a very high maintenance, if i may say so.
she needs to eat rice 3 times a day. only eat fresh food, n i mean she wouldn't eat lauk from lunch for dinner. she would throw away excess cooked rice from lunch and cook new ones for dinner. she doesn't eat mee goreng, roti canai, or kuih-muih.
and considering the fact that the prices for rice and everything else are rising, her attitude is getting on our nerves every single day!

dad told us just now, her previous employer was searching for her today. Supposedly, she used their phone during her working period with the previous employer and guess what? she owes that dude RM980 for phone bills only! CRAZY rite?

my mom was freaking out so we went to check our phone. thank god we have this history function where we can check the phone calls made. and there's this one unknown number in the dialed calls and we are very sure the call was made by her.

and have i ever mentioned that she's a psycho too? we got to know that this woman is not that poor to work as a maid. she comes from not so wealthy nor so poor background but she came here because her husband cheated on her. so she's kinda on a vacation to "calm" her raging emotions by working in malaysia.
and to think that we're gonna leave baby hannah with this psycho next month just scares the shit out of me.

hopefully mama can find a more suitable substitute quickly!

oh crap, i gotta go to work tomorrow. friggin fish balls! *sigh*
toodles~

Granny gone missing

As people celebrate Mother's Day with their moms, my mom had to go on search for her mom accompanied by her other 3 siblings. More dramas!

Sunday, 110508
9.30am
My cousin called my mom to tell her that Nek Mi went out as early as 7am to get some breakfast and she had not come back since then. My aunt went to the kedai my grandma usually goes but the pakcik there said she didn't come to his kedai at all that morning.

10.30am
Angah(my aunt) and my mom went to Klang, my other aunt's house, to discuss about it and continued to find Nek Mi.

1.00pm
She's nowhere to be found. My aunt thought that maybe Nek Mi took a bus and went back to her home in Bentong. So, my uncle rushed to Bentong to check if she's there. The rest continued on the search.

3.00pm
My uncle said Nek Mi's not in Bentong. Everyone panicked. They wanted to lodge a police report but the police wouldn't want to accept the report since its not even 24 hours yet.

Monday 120508
9am
still no sign of her after more than 24 hours she'd been missing

3pm
My uncle called. he brought us a great news. My grandma's back finally, in one piece. thank god!

So practically, thats how we spent this year's Mother's Day. Sadly, no pictures are available due to the whole drama.

oh crap!

i've messed up my blog..yet again. gatal tangan punya pasal la ni.
wanted to "beautify" my plain blog but this time after 155 times, I finally realized that I truly suck at doing this shit.
as a result, i had to redo back manually and it looks quite a bit cacat already :(
and since its 10 mins past 3.30am, I've decided to give it a rest and try again tomorrow if I'm not too busy.

toodles~

would like to take this opportunity to wish all mothers out there a very

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

and I want to express a huge gratitude to all mothers for their endless effort and sacrifice. Take a day off and pamper urself by all means. Its ur day!

I dont really have a plan to surprise my mom for this year's mother's day. well, i've sprained my left knee and i can hardly walk at this moment. not sure if i can go to work on monday either. *sigh*

maybe i'll just cook something special for lunch tomorrow and buy some presents for her next week. but i doubt she'll accept the gifts. boboy was complaining about mama when i asked him whether he's gonna find something to give mama for mother's day the other day. he said mama wouldn't want to accept anything he gave so why must he bother to give anything to her. LOL. very kesian la my baby brother tu.

usually we'll go somewhere nice to have dinner on mother's day but i think we have to opt for another plan since we cant leave baby hannah at home with the maid.

speaking of maid, makcik's leaving tonight :(
the new maid is SO VERY irritating. she has this one look on her face which irritates papa the most.
turns out that she doesn't really want to work. she's quite wealthy back there in indonesia but came here because she is devastated by what her husband did to her.
and u should see the way she holds baby hannah! it scares me to death that i'd rather sit at home and take care of that poor little thing by myself.

maybe i'm starting to be the overprotective-big-sister again. *gulp*

Baby Hannah turns one month today!

Happy one-month birthday baby hannah!

she's one month today, finally. and as promised, here are her new pictures.

Happy Labour Day people!!

i know i haven't been updating my blog since forever. been extremely busy with work.
thinking of it, i'd rather study forever than working :(

yesterday, went for lunch with haniza. got her msg at 10 plus and she said she's in shah alam.
i was really happy and took the opportunity to have lunch with her, one of the things that i miss the most since i started working.

today is my first ever labour day. before this, it had always been just another holiday and we usually plan stuff to do and yada yada yada. but this year, i've decided to sleep throughout the day besides spending the day with baby hannah.

speaking of baby hannah, she's getting smarter day by day. she can angkat her kepala now which is kinda rare for her age according to papa. its a blessing to wake up in the morning and see her cute face and kiss her forehead. every thing about her is simply amazing.

i promise to upload her new pics this weekend. i'm really hungry, waiting for papa and the brats to come back with the food.
toodles~