She's leaving :(

She's leaving tonight.
My sayang, my super awesome nikiee.
Got her message last night, or was it last 2days ago, saying that she's leaving on saturday. I swear I wanted to kill her straight away for such short notice.

Dear Baby,
I know that we don't really see each other that often, but knowing that you're not gonna be around is just, i dont know, killing me? hahaha. *drama queen mode*
but seriously, i will definitely miss you, woman. gatherings won't be the same without you. going back to kelantan won't be the same without you. and I will definitely miss talking to u about every thing. oh and yes, will definitely miss our camwhoring sessions ;p

I can't wait for you to come back in July and hopefully, I'll come and visit u in December. I know this picture is not one of your favourites BUT I just love it, although I look ugly too with the lame fish pout. lol.

Wishing you all the best in life, and love, since Shoan's there to take care of you, at least. I trust that you can take care of yourself there and I pray for your well-being. Hope that you'll find a good place to stay and enjoy your temporary "migration". Buy me good stuff please? Heeee :)

I love you so fuqn much sayang, you know I always will.

xoxo,
nik hanis

Like an apple hanging from a tree

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Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away

Happy Birthday Nikaay!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG!

Dearest Adik,

I had waited for 7 years to have another sibling to play with. Mama told the good news and apparently, I was about to have a baby sister. Well, that was 15 years ago.
Now, you're all grown up and getting prettier day by day (except for ur kembang nose, pardon me). We still fight, yes we do because thats what sisters do. They scream at each other, hit each other's heads with frozen hot dogs or even throw tantrum and destroy the other sister's room. But, I still love you no matter what.
Thank you for being the obnoxious little sister I could ever wish for. Oh yes, I'm fairer than you finally.

Hope that you'll have extra megamalous fun on your birthday. I know you're expecting a great big present from me since I'm working now. Well, we'll see okay kiddo? Hopefully some random cute guy will just pop out of nowhere and give u a present or something. But I still prefer your ex la, mind you. May all your wishes come true and God bless.

to SKA, with love

I was watching tv just now, and then, Music & Lyrics was just about to start.

Oh dear, it's exactly 2 years and a day since my girlfriends and I went out for the only "valentine's dinner". We didn't intend to have that in the remembrance of St. Valentine. It's just for fun, and since we hadn't been going out together, all 10 of us, for so long, so we thought lets just go out and have some fun. Yes, we had a few disagreements regarding the place to eat. Seriously, we suck at planning stuff. So, we had dinner at Dome Cafe in KLCC. And came the fun part. We had to give a present to one person each. A week or two before the day, we drew lots and picked up a name which we couldn't reveal it to any of us. It's like a surprise lah. So, after dinner, we exchanged gifts. I got eyeshadows from shadzy and still using it til now. Thanks babe, appreciate it so much.

After that, went for a movie. Bought tickets to watch, u've guessed it, Music & Lyrics. It was a hillarious and romantic movie. Hugh Grant looked so old but yet, so oh charming. We were laughing like retards and everyone was so happy and I have to say that, we had a good time after all. Well, that was 2 years ago. And now, we barely see each other

*sigh* I miss you girls so much *loves*

the gifts

this is "love"

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Feels like there just too many things clouding inside my head. It's weekend and I'm thinking of work already. I feel pressured, like you have so many responsibilities and that the deadlines are just almost here and you haven't completed any shit yet because there's just too many things and you have to learn it on your own in such limited time. Maybe I don't like what I'm doing currently. Maybe I should've taken masscom instead of accounting. There are too many "maybe"s running around and I can't visualize what's in for me next.

Okay, maybe I should stop whining about work.

Last Friday, were supposed to meet up with the girls but turned out aliaa and yaya had some other plans. So, I picked up haniza at the lrt station and went to kayu since the traffic's still blardy heavy. Oh emm gee (impersonating aliaa), before that, I was stuck in the craziest traffic jam ever. I got into the office at 10 am. Apparently, the le tour de langkawi caused the massive traffic jam. So, back to the story, haniza called lutfi to join us. and he came, but it's like he's invisible pun lah since haniza and I were so busy talking to each other and he was sitting there, looking clueless and have-no-idea-ness and oh yes, stoned-ness. after that, went to haniza's house and lepak-lepak with my second mother, auntie yan.

Last night, we were out to celebrate adik's birthday in advance since her birthday falls on a working day next week. Papa was irritated by the condition of the traffic that night. He was like,"Apasal la ramai sangat orang keluar ni?". And I was like,"Pa, it's valentine's kot? Salah pilih hari la kan nak keluar dinner" So, from kota damansara, we travelled halfway to bangsar and then turned back to subang sebab konon-kononnya nak makan dekat victoria station. But as soon as we got there, panjang gile kot orang beratur to get in. So, we've settled with this kopitiam restaurant in taipan. I have to say, I was "overdressed" to have dinner there. wait wait. let me rephrase that. I was TOO OVERdressed, please? hahaha. Everyone was looking la but what the hell la rite.

So yeah, that's basically the updates for this week.

Oh I almost forgot. There's this really cute chinese guy working at my place. But he's married la sadly. But really super uber cute okayyy. Like cair like that. He'd be like "Hey" and I'd be like too embarrassed to even look at his face pun. haiyoo

Oh, one more. Mr. "curly fries" messaged me yesterday and he told me that he dreamt of me.
scary?
indeed.

I want to go to Jason Mraz's concert please please pretty please? *goo goo eyes*
psst haniza, better don't kencing eh.

Update soon :)

okay, I know it's kinda late to say this but,

HAPPY LOVE DAY!

Just got back from McD's. Got the gift certificate this morning so I thot of belanja-ing the whole family. Boboy was still all semangat about the whole "boycott-US-products" thingy, he was so bising that we're going to have our dinner at McD's. But, he stopped after I bought him prosperity burger la *smiling*

I'm feeling a bit melancholic today. I miss the life I used to have back in uni. Every thing was so easy and I enjoyed the freedom back then. No need to worry about the littlest things, and you tend to take things for granted.

I've done things which I am not really proud of. But, that's part of the whole learning process in life and you can't just turn back the clock and expect things would be different and less complicated than it is now.

Yes, I miss you.
A friend who used to be there for me when I need to talk about crappy stuff. A person who I could count on. I sometimes took you for granted, because I know that you'd always be there for me. And who ever thought we would be here. I lost a friend whom I could talk about almost every thing. I know things won't ever be the same again, but I hope, that someday you will forgive me for all the horrible things I've done to you.

Kuah, my superior, asked me if I wanted to go on a company trip to Bangkok in March. Since it's full expense paid trip, I replied with a big smile

YES KUAH!

Now, I just have to renew my passport :)

hopeless

Oh em gee! (bitchy tone)

I found a small parcel on my bed.

Last week, Roza messaged me, asking for my address since a "secret admirer" just bought something for me from her store and wanted to post it to me. So I just gave her my address and I forgot that she posted it to me yesterday.

So, I opened it and to my blardy friggin surprise, it's from ZAIM! Kinda freaky lah in a way. Oh and have I mentioned that it's a "valentine's day gift"? So kononnya I have to call him and say thanks and he will ask me out for dinner on V-Day itself. Too bad I have plans la.

and I wished hard that it was from someone else instead :(

The weekend's here, finally.

McD's launched its McValue Lunch promotion yesterday, so we had to show our support either helping out the store people to serve the customers or be one of the customers. Since I have zero knowledge in flipping burgers, I had to buy a burger for lunch.

Had dinner with nizam and aliaa just now at the Curve. Hadn't seen him ages and gosh, he's cuter than ever. After that, went to Rasta to meet up with suraya and haniza. Her "potential" boyfriend came later and I swear he looks like Idros (confirm boe suka).

Okay, I still have a lot to update but my eyelids are too heavy now. Had a long day at work. And, I have to work on saturday or sunday since the claims are all still melambak on my desk.

pfft.

Can't wait for FRIDAY!

Oh, and I think my sister is still in love with the ex (oops)

what a day

I had the worst day ever.

I had my period yesterday so the cramps were still there this morning. Blame PMS! I was moody all day. Later in the afternoon, the MBPJ guy sent me the season parking sticker and I paid a friggin hundred for it. As I was in a rush, I put the sticker in one of my drawers before I got back to work.

Had lunch with Izan and Shida at this malay restaurant. My food came 30 mins after I ordered. Since Izan had to pay the deposit the cheques for the bills for TNB, we had to make a big round to public bank and back again to the office. I was sweating like orang gila.

Around 8ish, Shida ajak-ed me to go home. As I was busy packing, I opened the drawer and found out that the season parking sticker's not there. So, I looked in the other drawers and found nothing. Shida dah bising, so I just went to the lobby. And dear good Lord, it was raining heavily, cats and dogs, lebat gila - whatever you want to call it. So, I went up back to the office and continued searching for the missing sticker. I literally cleaned up my desk, afraid that the sticker might be under the piles of papers. But, still nothing. I wanted to cry (blame the PMS please) but Eddy was a few desks away from me, so I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me breaking down.

Note: I was really REALLY depressed and emotionally unstable, mind you. So, the thought of "every body is evil" was clouding up my mind.

I went back to the lobby and the rain was still heavy. So I called mom and told her about it. Luckily she was being extra nice today and I felt calmer and better after the call. Haniza, the second victim, had to listen to all my miserableness for 8 mins or less, I think? And, I waited there for another 15 minutes. There was no sign that the rain's gonna stop anytime soon. Being the superhero I've always been, I walked under the heavy rain (redah hujan orang melayu kata), ignoring the stares of other stranded people in the lobby, across the busy road and finally, I was in my car.

Reached home around 9.50pm, I went straight to my mom and cried. Baby Lisya just stared at me, maybe a bit weirded out kot. Dad was being a "bitch", he said that I lost the sticker because kononnya I always asked for money from both of my parents. See, the norm in my family is, you can only ask for money from one parent at a time. Cannot ask from both at the same time, harammmm. Well, apparently I did that during uni. And, he came up with this CRAZY idea that its like a punishment from God for my lack of honesty values. Can you imagine that? Your daughter had a terrible day at work, lost her RM100 friggin parking sticker, cold and wet, and not to forget blardy hungry. And you simply accused her, kononnya she's being punished by God. Wth man? So, I had this "talk" with him and told him what I felt when he despised me that way. And, for the gazzilionth time today, I cried. (Blame the pms again, please?)

Mom said my dad's having a "difficult" period in his life. In simpler words, he's having his menopause. Fullstop.

After dinner (wow, this is a bloody long entry, dont you think?) the whole family gathered in my parents' room. Boboy was being extra hyper, playing with the baby, and accidentally (with his Superman strength) smashed the wardrobe's mirror into pieces. He hurt himself on the elbow, and nearly fainted when he saw blood coming out. Jadi la kecoh satu rumah.

So, yeah. That's all about today's happenings. I have to call the MBPJ guy to cancel off my sticker tomorrow morning. I don't want to wish anything bad to the person who stole my sticker (if someone actually took it intentionally/unintentionally), but I have faith in God. Ever heard what goes around comes around?
So, just be careful la okay?

xoxo

fuqn malas to go to work tomorrow.
sheesh.

I want to marry a super fuqn rich guy so that I dont have to work for the rest of my life.

or maybe not.

I'm confused :(

The first daughter of Liaqaut Ali is ENGAGED

I got a message from Raf yesterday. Well, she just got back last week AND she told me that her sister's got engaged to "a very nice guy in India" (as she quoted), that's why they had to stay in India for another one month just for the engagement ceremony. She told me it's more like a wedding rather than engagement.

It was nice to hear from her after so long. She promised to meet up next week (jangan kencing sudah). Well Raf, I bet your engagement's gonna be REAL soon :)

I wish I could wear flip flops to work

I so have to shop for new shoes. Since I've started working, I've been wearing heels to work and now, I can blardy feel the side effects from wearing it too often for too long.
*curses*

I showed the bank recon thing to my dad, wanted to ask for his opinion regarding that crap. He was surprised to see how kelam-kabut the previous bank recons are. Firstly, they have a lot of adjustments to be made and secondly, the amount for unknown deposit was large. Okay, I'm talking accounts crap again. In other words, the whole thing's a mess from the start. Or in a kurang ajar way to say it, they practically gave me this one major crap which they couldn't solve it way before I came into the picture. They wanted a black sheep, a person who they can put the blame on whenever the senior managers need some answers or clarifications on the issues regarding the bank recons. Patutlah they didn't pass the audit last year. And, we're gonna have another audit this coming april. Obviously, they're gonna point their friggin fingers at me by then.

I think I need to start finding a new job :(